bored....

hahaz.... i got bored so decided to update here.... lol....

eh... i'm still stuck with the lyrics.... lolx... shld i make it into like mastercat??? lolx.... hahaz... i can c alot of ppl go "Nuuuuuu" well those i haven ask to help me think if they got think anyways hahaz.... will c lahz...

XD me bro got himself a new apartment next to redhill mrt station... hahaz... and he's moving out to stay with er-sao in say 2-3 months... lolx.... actuallly wait.. they are not renovating... ermz... make that 1 month.... hahaz... yay^^ maore space for myself hahaz.....

went to say his 'new' house today lolx... the previous owner is a veri nice grandma... <> hmfs... she told i was older than mi 28 year old brother.... T-T i got so old meh?? i onli nearing 19 this oct onli leh.... do i look 10 years older than my age?? i look like i'm at my thirties!!! T-T dun like her...

but she veri sad story... her sons are in disagreement with each other and her because of the house.... then like she kanna forced to sell the apartment.... then nobody help her out with the sale of the apartment or moving out.... then she fall down got bruises all over also none of her children care.... T_T veri poor thing.... summore so old liao injury veri veri long wun heal one.. and small small bruises like that sumtimes can lead to veri serious things ones....

makes me think... all these sound like the stories my dad told me about his childhood... where immediately after my grandfather died... there was fighting over the inheritance between the grandmothers in my family.. then that my direct grandmother(the eldest one) didn't want to get involved... and juz left.... i heard that the fighting was so bad that it turned violent in more than 1 occassion..... (well mi grandfather is mafia boss wad.. so quite loaded i supposed.... though we never knew wad happened to his fortune... none of the grandmas got much....)

ehhh.... lost track there.... niways.... like i was saying... made me think... so many treat money more important than kinship and the likes... to me it seems like there is seriously sumthing wrong with our society.... are so many families that empty? that everything is about profit/gains....

i was telling my mum that dun need to leave behind anything expensive for us... we can all support ourselves very well.. juz need to leave for us some sort of memento for us to remember you by..... well that's wad i think now.... but seeing all these things happening i just can't help but question if when i enter society... will i think like that tooz?

i'm scared of growing up.... i dun wanna grow up... if that's wad growing up will do.... i wanna stay a baby:P but that really isn't possible now is it? i'm already reaching my last years as a teenager.... i dun really have much of a choice...

okz.. that was whiney.... lolx.... well one of the many reasons to play as much as i can now... lolx... i have until i grad from uni.... (i hope) okz.... this is getting to be too long a post.. so i'll stop here:P hahaz...

Money, Property, Fortune
Dissonance, Disagreements, Disappointment
the things that adults do
scares the child I am
money truly is the root of all evil
i'm scared of growing up
i dun wanna grow up
i dun wann grow up