hahaz... here's an update FINALLY XD

lol.. kanna complain by sheena hahaz.... kk.... since i'm finally free XD

hmm.... me exams were.... bleh XP hahaz.... oh wellz.... sad though.. there goes trying to push gpa above 3.5 hahaz.... darn FYP T-T teacher said the highest grade possible was a B+ -.-

oh wellz... i guess when you dun write for such a long time, and you juz closed a chapter in your life, you juz have so much to write about, to keep a record of this chapter so you wun forget or to share with the friends around you... but its really hard to put it down for all to see.... hahaz.....

i guess in summary, i would say my life in poly was but a fleeting dream?its like you really feel you haven achieved anything, you still feel just as lost as to what you wanna do as when you just got your 'O' level results, you have this road paved out for you from your diploma, but you dunno if that's the right way? for me, i juz felt that aeronautical engineering is not the way to go for me... there is too much darkness behind the scenes... when you learn about how things are run and everything, it sorta makes me not want to take another plane lol....

i mean just look at the fundamental concepts as to way only commercial airlines are so concerned about flight safety.... throughout all your textbooks, you see the words "may lead to lost of life" as though it was a mandatory thing to be there.... but they would then go on to focus about the MONEY -.- what lawsuits lah blah blah... and how some airlines would delay the modification of known safety threats because it would cost too much to ground the fleet... i guess the naviety that is in abundance in my character just wouldn't allow me to stay on that field.....

hmm…. I suppose I should throw in sumthin juicy here huh? I know I’m over it now, but watching “Honey and Clover” threw a haunting doubt into my decision then… there was this girl that I had a feeling for in poly… from year 1 all the way through till recently I think I’ve finally cleared it off… and it took a great deal of effort… distancing myself from her for like a year…. I suppose the reason I didn’t go for her was coz she told me she had a boyfriend? And subsequently coz she suddenly became very close and sometimes intimate with this other guy I know when I got back from a choir trip…. (ermz okays... i wasn't there during the 3 months i was preparing for it too), anyways back to to about the anime, the show posed a question, that i was going to give up just because i didn't like to fight?
... ouch.... hahaz... there's a regret there hahaz...

alrite... hahaz... that's all you're getting hahaz.... hmm.. musically i suppose its the same.... instumentally the same frustrations still persist.... i'm unable to bring out the flavour of the song as well as i hear it in my mind.... singing wise well... in all honestly im not really putting in that much effort... coz its really more of a passing phase to me... i went into singing coz when i first entered, i found that there was alot less restrictions compared to playing.... but well in the choir's i've been to... i'm no longer getting the sastisfaction i used to have from singing... but its not because of the singing... but because the atmosphere i'm singing in always seem to turn bad... makes me think if i'm jinxed or if its sumthin i subconsiously always do.....

k lah.. this entry is getting excessively long haha.... stop here for now.... maybe will add more when i come back from korea?? XD k lah.. nitety XD